It feels so strange to say I'm looking forward to Autumn, because I normally detest the end of summer arriving but this year I really do feel like September couldn't come quick enough. A small part of looking forward to the cooler months is the inevitable change in my make-up choices. There's a few bits that have been relegated to the back of my drawers and its almost time to get them out again! So, here's what I'm excited to put on my eyes and face and lips in autumn and beyond!
Sunday, 21 August 2016
"God, don't you have a job yet?" she said to me across the canteen table. We were seventeen. Over the last few months it seemed like everyone was becoming a working woman (or man) and I wasn't aware of the sudden rush and importance of it. I felt like a little kid. So I started applying and I got knocked back. Queue the questions.
At the time I didn't know why. I thought it was because I wasn't good enough. But really, the reason I didn't get a job as soon as everyone else because I needed time to make the most of my freedom and to build my confidence in order to absolutely smash my first job. Which I did, I'm sure you're pleased to know.
"Rebecca's not got a boyfriend yet." I've heard this cringe-inducing phase more times than I care to count, from the mouths of well-meaning relatives. I spent a long time feeling utterly ashamed that they had to say this. What was wrong with me? Everyone around me was paired off. Even my teenage cousins were almost all coupled up. But I resisted searching for someone for the sake of it. Even when I didn't know why, I knew it was better to be alone than with someone I was unhappy or uninterested beside. The truth is, I haven't met the love of my life yet because I'm simply not ready - there are other things I need to do and concentrate on. And that's fine. I'm already excited for the relationship I can give my all to.
"So, what are you doing after you graduate?" Similar to the relationship question, if I had a quid for every time I've been asked this, I would be rich. I had NO IDEA. Why couldn't people stop asking? The more I was asked, the more I panicked and cursed my indecisive self for not knowing what I wanted to go into. For not knowing why I chose that degree in the first place. But actually, the reason why I didn't know what I wanted to do when I left uni is because I needed to experience the wrong career to allow me to look at the right one.
Trusting the timing of my life is something I'm not very good at. I tend to be impatient and wonder why things aren't happening NOW but usually it's for good reason. Looking at the passages above, the reasons for things not happening when I expected have allowed other great and positive things to happen first which have then led me on to what I was waiting for. In some cases, that thing still hasn't happened yet, but these days I am far more free and easy about it. Although I'm not religious, I constantly say, "It's fate," and the idea that my life is planned out somehow and that all I have to do is follow the plan, even if I'm going in blind, is comforting to me. I've really learnt over the last year to trust the timing of my life. And genuinely trust it, without worrying about the fact that things aren't happening when or how I expected.
And it's funny, I was actually talking to my cousin Danni about it recently, but I said I felt like 2016 had been the best year of my life so far. I was struggling to describe how I just felt I was on the right path generally and she said, "You feel like everything's falling into place," which actually summed it up perfectly. I couldn't have put it better myself. That's what I suppose this post is about really. If you're going through a time where it feels like nothing is right and indeed, everything seems to be going really wrong, ride out the storm. It WILL pass. You will come out on top and you will have a time where everything seems to be falling into place. I swear, I really thought mine would never come, but once I did start trying to trust the timing of my life, the timings all seemed to be just right. So right now, I'm not worried about anything in the future really. It'll happen at the right time.
Do you leave things to fate or do you worry about whether things are happening when they should? What do you think about trusting the timing of your life?
Thursday, 11 August 2016
You may or may not know that I scrapbook, using the Project Life (PL for short) system. It's basically scrapbooking but with plastic photo pockets rather than paper. I love doing it but I don't always have time to get a lot done as it's a way more time-consuming hobby than I first thought it would be. For example, this post will only share the first three months of the year, as that's all I've currently completed in my 2016 folder! I'm getting there though; I've just ordered the photos for April and May so hopefully you'll be able to see more soon. For now, here's the first quarter of the year.
Tuesday, 9 August 2016
I was recently tagged to take part in this post by Sal at UmmBaby Beauty (one of my favourite ever blogs, please go and follow her!) and it basically chronicles the best things about summer. As summer is probably my favourite season this should be quite easy to answer! Let's go.
Sunday, 7 August 2016
It's now been two months since I made the promise to myself that I would read more. You can see my full list here and read about my motivation in more detail. In June I got through the three books I had chosen relatively quickly and easily but for some reason I held off buying anything for most of July. I have no idea why because this was one indulgence I said I was going to allow myself to make - it's well worth spending a few pounds a month on something that gives you so much pleasure isn't it?! But anyway, in the end I did get two books so here's what they were and what I thought of them!
Thursday, 4 August 2016
Tuesday, 2 August 2016
It feels absolutely ages since I last wrote one of these reflective sort of posts but it really was only last month. But back to the present - here's what I did in July that I was proud of.